Who said day 1 is the worst in a three day fast? I'm quite sure day 2 is so far the worst. Ugh. And I had to pick to fast over Valentine's Day? What was I thinking? My husband said he had plans to bring home steaks and grill out for Valentine's Day. A nice bottle of wine, steak and baked potatoes, salad and chocolate truffles for dessert.
ok now I'm just torturing myself.
I sort of feel like Esau did when he sold his birthright. Only by the grace of God and HIS strength will I continue this fast for another 42 hours. It's been 40 hours so far so I'm not quite half way done. Technically I'm doing a 3 day and 10 hour fast since I went from dinner on Tuesday til breakfast on Friday without eating or drinking anything but water or hot tea. That's better right? lol
At this point all I'm trying to do is think about what to do the rest of the day to keep my mind off food. As soon as Alan gets home I think I'll go and work out or else convince he and Chloe to go for a long work and then go work out. I want to pick him up a Green Thai Curry for his Valentine's Day dinner. I made him pancakes this morning before he left for school and I was sitting there thinking - oh I'll have mine with chocolate chips and peanut butter... until I remembered I was fasting! So I drank my cup of tea and that was that.
Had to admit being a bit sad that there wasn't a bouquet of flowers waiting for me when I woke up this morning. I got Alan about 5 boxes of chocolates and a card but when he saw I was sad he felt really bad and said, "but Valentine's Day is all day right?" That's a poor mans excuse for forgetting I think (or a procrastinating man's). :) Ah well, he was busy yesterday going to school then going to work at the CVJM Waldheim. As soon as he got home I left him with Chloe to take care of while I went to the gym so he does have a valid excuse and it only bothered me for a few minutes.
Chloe is sleeping now and I'm trying to get at least somewhat organized before Alan gets home. I take that back - Chloe just starting shouting "mama, mama, mama" over and over again. So much for getting organized! :) brb
ok I'm back now. Chloe's favorite word has become "mama". She says it literally all day long. Not because she necessarily needs anything but only because it sounds good I think. lol I keep trying to get her to say daddy or webster or nana or anything else because hearing mama one thousand times a day is a bit much. My responses range from, "yes honey" to "yes sweetheart" to "yes baby" to "WHAT!?" That last one always gets a giggle out of her. I couldn't love this child more. She is my precious Valentine and all the cuddles I got yesterday far made up for the fact that my beautiful two dozen yellow tulips (my favorites) didn't arrive until Alan got home. He's a sweet man and he tries so hard. I am very grateful and very blessed to have him in my life. Can't believe we've been married for nearly 4 years. Where does the time go??